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Monday is going to be fun when I get home from work I am going to get shitfaced and then blog this should be fun

The Beauty Of Not Knowing aka My Personal Hell

Seems like I get the urge to blog when I am feeling down about myself so pardon me while I attempt to get some shit out..............

My Personal Hell consists of a whole bunch of shit I have no control over but so be it. Be it my thyroid, diabeetus, or depression something is FUCKED on the inside..... not sure which but have to wait till I can find dollars to find out (wal-mart has the worst insurance plan known to man). I went to a doctor to find out what's wrong to find this out. $436.16 is what it's going to cost me to find out right out of my pocket which is already empty. Life will go on.....

I have researched all of these diagnosises (sp?) and seems like they all fit. Can't sleep, feel down, feel better when I eat sugar, body aches, you name it I got it. I have been able to control it for the last eight years or so but lately shits been piled on and I can't seem to get a grip on it..... to put it bluntly I feel like Jack when he beat the living FUCK out of that kid in fight club I just want to destroy something.

But so be it... Football is right around the corner which means I won't be able to watch any games but will be able to read all about them which is good because I love football. Sad to see Coach Bowden won't be on the sidelines though.